Hello,
First of all, I'm sorry this post is two days later than I usually upload - I'll get to why in a bit!
This week has felt even longer than every other week I've had at university - I was lucky last week to have two days off but I felt really ill on those couple of days and (though I can't remember actually how I spent them) I imagine it was in bed!
On Thursday I was meant to have an audio session where we worked on our assignments but at 1am that morning I was really worked up and I felt awful so my boyfriend helped me email my tutor so he'd know I wouldn't be there for the day - I missed my first day at uni, first sick day.
I spent most of the morning in bed, the boyfriend took a trip to Asda with me to get some fresh air and pick up some shopping but I went back to bed as soon as we got back - I really wasn't feeling it last week!
However on Friday, for photography, I was determined to go in because I had three themes that I wanted to photography for my assignment and I made it - we spent two hours learning how to print photos properly (it really didn't need to take two hours) and then from three until half past six I was taking photos. At first a couple of people from my course were there but they finished what they needed and went home.
I was glad to get three themes done though - I now only have one theme, a location shoot and three stock jobs to photograph and then that's all that photos done. I have to do some writing stuff and a portfolio style thing alongside printing a physical copy of my theme photos but I've done quite a bit. Even though it feels like I've got twice as much still to do.
The weekend was fun - I saw friends, I made videos, but slowly my motivation to do anything at all is draining. Blogging is the only thing I'm still (mostly) happy to do - I didn't want to make a video, I don't want to do any uni work, I don't even want to get out of bed anymore. I'm really struggling right now if I'm being perfectly honest, but I do have a doctors appointment for next week so hopefully I should be able to get back on track.
On Monday I had a lecture, shorthand and a seminar that was interesting - I wrote a new blog post for UCAS which you can read here - and I'm thinking of potentially finding some blogging work for the New Year. History should suggest that I could be seen as struggling with running three blogs but I really do love it and I think I'm getting better at it so if I could find some paid work that would be really fun (and my bank would love me).
Tuesday and Wednesday I was lucky to have off again but failed to use them productively due to decreasing health and motivation - Wednesday I did manage to get my audio assignment ready and start work on my feature but I had a mild meltdown about how stupid I was to leave them this close to the deadlines.
It was like being back in school all over again.
But today, Thursday, my audio assignment is done (probably failed) and submitted and I'm going to work on my feature after lunch until I'm done. I'm not going to let myself do anything else or see anyone else until my feature's done. But obviously I'll have YouTube breaks for my own sanity.
Okay that sounds bad - I have my method and generally it works, I just wish I'd started using said method about a week ago.
I'm stressed out and struggling right now, but only one more week till I'm home for Christmas at least.
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